I know these things

though they sleep within me

What once was in the garden

is now choked by earth’s vines

vines that closed Eden to us

and our hearts

to our true selves

All we cling to now

is memory

of nakedness without shame

We may claw and slash

at the vines

seeking our return

to paradise

to unity

to love undistorted

but what was lost

will not


be found in the ruins

Turn your face, then

to the living memory

given us

to nakedness nailed

upon a tree

He who is without shame

Yes, He will awaken you

awaken us

to the love

that was

and can be again

Discovering Home

I am home. But what is home to me? If home is where your heart is, home is many places now. And not mere places, though, but persons. Without the people I love, my beloved islanders, Prince Edward Island would be nothing but another beautiful getaway, like France or Spain.

Oh, how I came to love the island, and not as I thought I would. It took time to see what makes the island a place I desire to return to, a place where something wonderful is growing and waiting to bud. Who knows what will come forth, but I want to be there when it happens.

Saskatchewan is at once familiar and foreign. I did not understand this at first, but upon reflection I realized that what makes it as foreign as Egypt is that I no longer belong here as I once did. My memory is triggered, remembering how comfortable I was here not long ago, but the new self is experiencing home as if for the first time.

And this is okay, because though I look forward to fresh experiences . . . I will always return, as long as my family remains, transforming a beautiful getaway into something much more profound. It was my nest, the place that formed me. Now it is like a delicate ringlet clipped from a child’s head and pressed into a locket, to remember the days that fostered innocence and carefree abandon.

I will not forget. No, my heart will not forget, because home is indeed where your heart is.

The Greatest Things

I’d like to share with you this piece by Saint Anthony of Padua. It is called Be Satisfied With Me:


Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone,

to have a deep soul relationship with another,

to be loved thoroughly and exclusively.

But to a Christian, God says, “No, not until you are satisfied,

fulfilled, and content with being loved by Me alone,

with giving yourself totally and unreservedly to Me,

with having an intensely personal and unique relationship with Me alone,

discovering that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found,

will you be capable of the perfect human relationship

that I have planned for you.

You will never be united to another

until you are united with Me,

exclusive of anyone or anything else,

exclusive of any other desires or longings.

I want you to stop planning, to stop wishing, and allow Me to give you

the most thrilling plan existing . . . one you cannot imagine.

I want you to have the best.

Please allow Me to bring it to you.

You just keep watching Me, expecting the greatest things.

Keep experiencing the satisfaction that I AM.

Keep listening and learning the things that I tell you.

Just wait, that’s all. Don’t be anxious, don’t worry.

Don’t look at the things you think you want,

just keep looking off and away up to Me,

or you’ll miss what I want to show you.

And then, when you’re ready, I’ll surprise you with a love

far more wonderful than you could dream of.

You see, until you are ready, and until the one I have for you is ready,

(I am working even at this moment

to have you both ready at the same time),

until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me

and the life I prepared for you,

you won’t be able to experience the love

that exemplifies your relationship with Me.

And this is perfect love.

And dear one, I want you to have this most wonderful love,

I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with Me.

And to enjoy materially and concretely the everlasting union of beauty, perfection, and love that I offer you with Myself.

Know that I love you utterly. I AM God.

Believe it and be satisfied.


One day, I think, I will write my life down as a story, because it is just that to me—a story with a plot I could never have conceived, with twists and turns coming at the most unexpected moments, but always the perfect moments. Yes, He is unfolding a thrilling plan, and by this has taught me to release my own dreams and desires into His hands, because His ways are proven again and again to be far better than my own. By this He has taught me to expect the greatest things.

Oh, how much I have learned and grown since coming to this little gem set in the sea; I have learned to surrender and to love surrendering—not that I do this perfectly, of course, but I do believe with my whole self that it is the only way to live a fulfilling life. Like a boat on the waves, if the wind pushes me north when I wish to go south, I can do nothing but hoist the sail and trust that the Holy Spirit is guiding me onward to where I am called to be, to where I will be happiest.

And happy I am.